Full Circle

So this morning I come back to the therapy that provides me with such comfort. I get so busy, but the need to make time to do it more. Today is a letter of forgiveness, not forgetting. So to anyone out there who this might pertain to, maybe you are struggling with forgiveness like it takes me so long to do, but getting to a place of not forgetting but remembering fondly and taking appreciation for what you learned and not being filled with bitterness.
Here it goes:

I forgive you for telling me you loved me and that you would wait for me;

I forgive you for telling me that you knew what I was the one, but quickly changing your mind;

I forgive you for leaving and never looking back;

I forgive you for lying to me;

I forgive you for taking something so precious from me and then leaving me;

I forgive you for loving her more than me even though that isn't a sin just a heartache;

I forgive you for making promises for our future about our children and what they would look like and never allowing me the time to see them through;

I forgive you for all the broken promises and I forgive myself for all the heartache that I might have caused.

I forgive all these things and more, but mostly I want to say that I pray:

I pray that you are unabashedly and amazingly happy;

I pray that you are successful in every part of your life, as he wants to bless us all in breathtaking ways;

I pray that you continue to seek God in every little section of life, as He amazingly faithful;

I pray that you pause and listen close to His direction; His ways are always best;

I pray that you continue to appreciate what we learned during our time together and use it to the best advantage, because he uses it all things for good, even the hard stuff;

I pray that your heart is full of the Lord and remember that no one person can complete you- only God can;

I pray and pray and pray for the blessings God wants for all of us to be fruitful and us to amazingly worship and serve him.;

I pray that you will remember always that I loved you and still do, as well as believe in you, you will always have my support in the wings;

I am nowhere near where I need to be, but I am working on it, but this life is all about growth and I am so happy to be where I am. Satan isn't going to have the stronghold on me that I am not a whole person without a partner... that I am somehow not who I am supposed to be... Good things come to those who wait, my patience is getting stronger through the struggle...

It is faith where I close officially this chapter of you in my life. I am ready to move on, try new things and meet new people... go out on dates because I am ready to, I am as closed to healed as I will ever be from a broken heart. I am excited and happy about this place where I am headed, soon it will be my turn to be happy with a partner... but for now I am happy where I am...

J