Today, was a day to remember and learn from. So, i decided to give the alternative school a try with substituting. I just felt like it was the longest day ever AND it was only HALF a DAY!! I felt so sad for these kids, do they not have anyone to look up to that they have to be so disrespectful to the adults that are trying to help them. BA is an alternative school, alternative to the street or expulsion! I would be grateful for the opportunity to be there and just do my best to get in and get out.
I just have to wonder what their home life is like. Do their parents have no control over them? Do they even have parents that care for them? Do they let them get away with EVERYTHING? It is amazing to me that kids can be so unruly, rude, harsh, obnoxious, and me still feel sorry for them. It is amazing also at how little they know about life, and how much they think they know. It's also crazy to think that they think fighting, cussing, stealing, etc., make them all a MAN. If you use a cuss word in front of me, I loose all respect for you. In my opinion, it takes a bigger man to handle it without cuss words. I was wondering if they would be acting any differently if their mom's or dad's were standing there. Do these kids just want some attention? Is that really why they act up or out? Or is there something else? I can't really believe that cussing and fighting and all that anger just comes from wanting or lacking attention. I know there are much deeper issues that they can't or won't admit to themselves let alone anyone else. I am not saying that they don't deserve another chance to change themselves, but these students are so hard to reach! I am praying for them the students and their attitudes and also I will be in constant prayer for the teachers at this school, as all of them should be considered saints in my book. I am so thankful for the opportunity and life that I was given. God has truly blessed me in that respect.
"Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me;
yet not my will, but yours be done"
- Luke 22:42
this was my verse, it was the verse that got me through today. God put me in this situation today to strengthen my faith, soften my heart, and test my abilities... I love the LORD!! It is also poignant to my life at this point, as far as jobs and where I am going with my life. It is so comforting to know that HE knows our struggle, but HE also know the end of the struggle and promise of the future. I LOVE MY DADDY IN HEAVEN!!!:) HE IS SO GOOD TO ME!! AMEN!!
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
March 14, 2006
Hola Amigos!!:) So I am taking a personal day today and recouping from my interview yesterday. I was emotionally drained, but the interview went as well as I could have hoped. I should know in a couple of weeks, the verdict that is, on whether or not I get the job. It would be a huge undertaking and challenge for me, but I do believe that I can do it if given the opportunity.
Today, I so could have worked, but i didn't. I work tomorrow and half a day thursday before my interview in Charleston, so that will be days 8 and 9 of my substituting minimum of 15 days. I better rack them up now, so that I will be able to save some money before the summer. I will work more hours next week.
So I am just glancing over at my bible, it's talking about John the Baptist and the lessons we can learn from his life:
1) God does not guarantee an easy or safe life to those who serve Him.
2) Doing what God desires is the greatest possible life investment.
3) Standing for the truth is more important than life itself.
What a truth it is to know these things!! God is so cool. Especially as I am preparing to go on this mission trip to Ecuador in June. It is funny how people think that just because you believe in God, that automatically means you have it all figured out, that your life is easy and safe, with now worries or cares, when actually having a relationship with Him, makes it easier to bear all the heartaches and pain that this world allows.
That being said, it is also appropriate to note, that in returning to my book Beyond Jabez by Bruce Wilkinson, he discusses the importance of asking for protection against these temptations and in the midst of these heartaches to lighten our loads per say. Wilkinson believes that this is what Jabez really meant when he said "and that You would keep me from evil that I may not cause pain!" This book is so powerful, that even after not reading it in months, I am able to pick up where I left off and recall the wonderful way that God worked in my life when I was reading and praying this prayer before. Check it out: 1st Chronicles 4:10. It talks about all the things that we are afraid that we should not and are not supposed to ask for in this prayer and how appropriate this prayer is to our present lives in Christ.
Today, I so could have worked, but i didn't. I work tomorrow and half a day thursday before my interview in Charleston, so that will be days 8 and 9 of my substituting minimum of 15 days. I better rack them up now, so that I will be able to save some money before the summer. I will work more hours next week.
So I am just glancing over at my bible, it's talking about John the Baptist and the lessons we can learn from his life:
1) God does not guarantee an easy or safe life to those who serve Him.
2) Doing what God desires is the greatest possible life investment.
3) Standing for the truth is more important than life itself.
What a truth it is to know these things!! God is so cool. Especially as I am preparing to go on this mission trip to Ecuador in June. It is funny how people think that just because you believe in God, that automatically means you have it all figured out, that your life is easy and safe, with now worries or cares, when actually having a relationship with Him, makes it easier to bear all the heartaches and pain that this world allows.
That being said, it is also appropriate to note, that in returning to my book Beyond Jabez by Bruce Wilkinson, he discusses the importance of asking for protection against these temptations and in the midst of these heartaches to lighten our loads per say. Wilkinson believes that this is what Jabez really meant when he said "and that You would keep me from evil that I may not cause pain!" This book is so powerful, that even after not reading it in months, I am able to pick up where I left off and recall the wonderful way that God worked in my life when I was reading and praying this prayer before. Check it out: 1st Chronicles 4:10. It talks about all the things that we are afraid that we should not and are not supposed to ask for in this prayer and how appropriate this prayer is to our present lives in Christ.
Monday, March 13, 2006
March 13, 2006
Wow! What a great morning! I am so blessed to be able to enjoy this and be able to have time to sit and drink my coffee , read, and share the blessings that I feel are pervading my spirit!! I just woke up today with a wonderful feeling of gratitude to be alive, to have the opportunity to even interview for a position that I feel passionate about, to share my knowledge and skills with, as well as excitement and enthusiasm.
How appropriate on a day that I would usually tremble with fear and anxiety, that I would choose to open my Bible to read my memory verse for the week and it would be this:
"The Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the ONE and ONLY, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth."- John 1:14
So cool! He is in ME! That is so comforting to know that I am never alone, even when my physical world tells me so. Even in my job interview, He is on my shoulder putting every word in my mouth and thought in my head, filling me with possibility! I am ready! BRING IT ON!! He understands what it's like to be me and given me an identity in Him, an heir to his wonderful kingdom, that I am totally undeserving of and that is the ultimate gratitude that I have.
An interesting note, my bible footnotes state that verse 14 states that Christ became:
1)PERFECT TEACHER
2) PERFECT EXAMPLE
3)PERFECT SACRIFICE
How appropriate that speaks to me in my job pursuits, as I am constantly open and pursuing perfection, but I am only made PERFECT through Him and His teaching, example, and most of all sacrifice.
How appropriate on a day that I would usually tremble with fear and anxiety, that I would choose to open my Bible to read my memory verse for the week and it would be this:
"The Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the ONE and ONLY, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth."- John 1:14
So cool! He is in ME! That is so comforting to know that I am never alone, even when my physical world tells me so. Even in my job interview, He is on my shoulder putting every word in my mouth and thought in my head, filling me with possibility! I am ready! BRING IT ON!! He understands what it's like to be me and given me an identity in Him, an heir to his wonderful kingdom, that I am totally undeserving of and that is the ultimate gratitude that I have.
An interesting note, my bible footnotes state that verse 14 states that Christ became:
1)PERFECT TEACHER
2) PERFECT EXAMPLE
3)PERFECT SACRIFICE
How appropriate that speaks to me in my job pursuits, as I am constantly open and pursuing perfection, but I am only made PERFECT through Him and His teaching, example, and most of all sacrifice.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
March 12, 2006
Alright, so it is the day before my big interview. I have prepared the best I can for it, minus a few practices and a bit of reading i will do before the actual interview. i am watching my favorite roseanne episode and chillin' -"Becky Cut the Cheese"...:) ! I have about come to the complete conclusion that if God wants me to have this job, then he will give it to me and enable me to do it to the best of my ability. I mean the possibility of the work is overwhelming and exciting all at the same time. In a way, I am looking forward to being able to prove myself, but I know that I am not alone. I am interviewing them, as they are interviewing me. So I will just pray real hard and look over my notes before going and let God take care of the rest. I am not really afraid, just ready to go. Just talk to me in 12 hrs and I might tell u differently...:)
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