Today

I woke up this morning with a renewed feeling about my faith. If anything this past weekend's experience has taught me how much I truly love the Lord. I can't say that I will be returning to any event, such as this before, but I can say I am able to appreciate what it means to the people there, as well as to me.

On my way home from school today, I was thinking about how I would explain my feelings about this weekend to my friends who went with me. I gave off the wrong impression. I know how they will react to what I am about to say, but I am willing to deal with it.

I do not need to be reminded of past hurts to be healed from them, I believe that God is continually healing me everyday and that it is not an instantanous process, but one that is ongoing. Yes, I have fear in my life, rejection, anger, but really who doesn't? Besides that, I feel as though there are people in heaven who never went through the 'casting out of demons', who had just as many 'demons' as I do and God still wants them to be a part of His Kingdom. The plain and simple of it is that I just don't care for this type of thing. You can say that the devil is taking over me, whatever you want, but I know that God reigns supreme in my life. Afterall at the core it is about my relationship with Him, not what the world thinks of He and I. We all view our faith exibition differently and that is okay. He loves us as long as we accept Him, His Son, and Love Him! He is working out His purpose despite what my past has provided me with in terms of faults and insecurities. GOD IS GOOD... ALL THE TIME!!