Here I am

So here I am in the middle of a boring day... i am so about to go crazy here. I have decided that I will move back to Georgia after graduation. I am just sick and tired of here. God always comes through in the midst of my pain, saying make time for me, if you have time give it to me, spend it in quiet time... Let things happen in their own time. I just am so restless and feeling like I am wasting my life away just sitting around and waiting for things to happen. I have done what I could in becoming friends with people, being active in church and in school, but I am still lonely. If I just had one person to call and say, hey, can we hang out or what ever or if my friends would set my up that would be great. I tried eharmony, but that costs money that I do not have. I am tired of doing things on my own, I want to do new things but not by myself. I hate having to initiate all of my friend outings... why can't they call me? The people who really love me are in Atlanta and I need their support and companionship. Not the lack of companionship I have here. Don't get me wrong this is not a horrible place with horrific people, it had much appeal when it was new and i knew i still had opportunities for growth and companionship. I do love the people I have met here, but there l ives would have been no different if I had not moved here. I love my roomie too, but I am just not happy anymore here. I wish it were different but I can't help how I feel because God speaks to me through my emotions and on my days off he is speaking SOO LOUD and SOOO CLEAR to let go of this place. I have to go, I hope that I can make it until December... I have too... It seems like I spend forever waiting and waiting for something to happen and it doesn't. I am just a little disillusioned and disjointed.

Bored and Waiting,
Jules