Back Again

I have been MIA for a week or so, where I have decided that there is no place that I can escape for God's plan for my life. It may sound silly, but for some reason I thought that I could change His mind on the path, but alas unless I want to live in this permanent state of unhappiness, I have to start over. I hate starting over. I hate repeating past mistakes. I hate hurting others. However, I did go to church yesterday at Newspring in Anderson and we talked candidly about love and hate, light and dark, love and wrath... Whoa... many of us don't want to think about how God can take wrath on our lives if we choose to disobey, which I have been doing for soooo long! We also discussed how the very people that call themselves Christian's are the ones that will be judging us most. So you may make a decision or take a path that someone else may not like, it's not worth it in this life to make others happy if we are sacrificing our own happiness. All I pray for any of you who have or are suffering from some sort of depression is that of peace. That is all I have been praying for these past few weeks. I have tasted glimpses of it and it sure is sweet... I love you all.