New Years Resolutions

I hope that this is not considered plagarizing, but my wonderful new/old friend, posted this on her blog as her new years resolution. I thought it was fitting for me. I didn't feel that I needed to change a word:

"It's simple, and there's only one: To take care of myself. In every way, shape and form. Mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and physically. To put myself first, even if it means being selfish sometimes. Because it's only when I feel complete as a person, by myself, that I can achieve happiness, make others happy, and attain my goals."

I am well on my way to that, I have many new ideas and although he comes to mind often, its more of a gratitude for who he is and what he has shown me, because I know know matter what that he loves me and supports me and that no one can replace what we had, have, or will have in the future. Our relationship is unique and it was special and I hope it will be again if that is God's will.

Yesterday was amazing! I was able to join the YMCA (physically), I was able to open my savings account to begin to save for my car (financially), I was able to shop for food to support me physically. I was able to begin to heal with the beginning of the counseling sessions that will start next week (mentally and spiritually). I was also able to attend my roommate Anna's church for all night prayer (spiritually). Normally, I would have been groaning about how long we have to stay... but ironically the sermon was just fitting for the time that I am in my life. It was about letting go of the sins, habits, or things holding us back from truly experiencing God's upward call. Phillipians 3, talks about us pressing on toward the goal of heaven that is the prize that awaits us. Its so amazing to me to how God meets me right where I am, pats me on the head and says, yes, i am still here... let's get refocused on the right things that will bring you the happiness and joy that you desire. I filled up a note card with ideas about the things I would like to leave behind then they just went up in smoke... i will have to leave those things behind daily as some of them are lifelong habits.

Wow, God is Good!! I am starting to climb up out of that valley. My footsteps are small but significant. I also got to stay in amazing house downtown last night.

I am so right there with Melissa, that we need to help each other. So many people are afraid to talk about the problems that they have because they are afraid of condemnation or judgement, but EVERYONE struggles at one time or another. We have to be strong enough to reach out for help and be vulnerable enough to help others. Praise God for baby steps... :)

Read the Shack if you haven't yet: it's amazing and will most definetly change or alter your perspective on God and his relationship to Jesus/Holy Spirit and to us. It will allow you to see how we can truly be freed if we just are open to it and think outside our worldly box!

Well, that's my two cents for the day... off to pack for Augusta... Catch ya tomorrow and I am praying for you all!:)